If this is his way of trying to convince me I need him in my life. Because I just wanna leave everyone and get away.

It sounds bad, but I’ve had this desire to slit my wrists lately. But here’s the thing, I’m a sadist & a masachist. It also sounds bad, but I usually have rough sex (with my partner). Well I haven’t been seeing my partner too much lately and have actually been quite bored with my partner. So in order to veer away from the desire to slit my wrist, I think I’ll buy a whip, Since getting tattoos and piercings (my back up plan, which explains all my tattoos [6] and piercings [10]) is out of the question.

Some might say its a gift or a curse. It’s just once I get something in my mind, I gotta do it or I gotta have it. And anyone that knows me well will tell you…I get what I want. One way or another. I always get what I want.

I need a freakin job.

That the only way to really live life is to explore outside my city, and live somewhere else. How can I run when I have nothing to run with? I know where to go. I just don’t know how to get there.