Journal ethics feb 5, 2013
So my teacher wants us to talk about our background or upbringing in this journal. Pretty much she wants to know why I’m a dick to everybody. Okay. So let me think. I’ll start when I was 5 and my cousin amber molested me. I knew it wasn’t right but I had absolutely no control over it since she was 11 at the time. It confused me. In second grade, this girl Beverly stole my best friend Alexa. Later, in the third grade after I already hated her, she won me over. We became bestfriends but I don’t really know what her problem was… She would be mad at me for no reason and then we’d stop being friends, it was off and on like some kind of gay relationship. Not literally speaking but we did have our share of lesbian encounters together. In the fifth grade, this girl Hannah who I also considered a bestfriend would hit me. I didn’t do anything about it cuz I know she was playing but she would hit hard sometimes. I wondered after awhile if she really meant it or if she was just playing. I kind of think it was both. In the sixth grade this girl deandra tried to steal my identity. She would act like me, dress like me, talk like me and even changed her name to DC. Sixth grade is also the time when I realized I like women. In seventh grade, I got my first boyfriend. He left me for another girl. But I also cheated on him with this girl Caitt and I also cheated on her with this girl Michelle. Sometimes I think Michelle is “one who got away.” I see her from time to time but I doubt she recognizes me, but that is neither here nor there. Seventh grade I had Pamela and lauri as a bestfriend. I have to say Lauri was a better friend but she was not very supportive of me. In a way that a friend would want what’s best for another friend. But she would get mad at me because I think she thought the decisions I was making was dumb. I understood that but to get mad at me…. I don’t know. Anyway, I lost her because she didnt like that I was with Michael. And she didnt like that I was with Robbie. Anyway her and I had our share of lesbian encounters as well. Michael beat me. And Robbie would break my heart. I also met Veronica my freshman year. Needless to see she’s been the greatest friend I ever had. Lyndsay and Morgan… They were bestfriends too. I lost Lyndsay to drugs I think… Morgan was also another great friend next to Veronica. And I loved her. She was straight but we needed eachother. I would give her the attention she wanted. And she would spend time with me. Give me kisses. Cushion the blow from Robbie. She was my princess. We got in a fight though. She thought that I was changing because I had befriended enemies… Kelly and Auquia. They weren’t my bestfriends though. They were just new friends I forgave. And they forgave me for the wrong I had done to them as well. Anyway, she ended up moving back to Abiline after she broke up with her boyfriend Kyle. I miss her. Sophomore year I went to Prom w Veronica. Took a good beating to the heart from Robbie. Went to my brothers baseball games. Junior year I met mandi and John John and Anissa. Mandi fucked me over
And that’s where I stopped. Maybe I’ll finish it. Maybe I won’t.